It was in the embracing of my broken that I could identify with others brokenness. It was my role to identify with others pain, not to relieve it. Ministry is sharing, not dominating, understanding not theologizing, caring not fixing~

Mike Yaconelli

 
I have been learning this concept of ministry and what it truly looks like. I am broken but in my brokenness I am able to relate, I don't have to fix their problem… only identify. I think then they will be released to see the power of God because they don't have a sense that they have to be a certain way before God will allow us to come to him, he simply says come. When the people around us see that we are just like them but in love with Christ how can they not be drawn. I am convicted of my pride; of thinking I could be rejected. If I am proud of my love, why would I not others to experience this as well? I am looking at life a little different now. I want to see with my Father's eyes, the love he has for his children and those who reject him. I think if we saw who Jesus was we could do nothing but radiate his goodness.

I have been spending a lot of time holding the little babies at an abandon baby home for infants who have HIV or AIDS. I still feel helpless, but I don't think that will ever leave. Scott my worship pastor reminded me, that holding the children is doing something and loving them is more than they have ever known. I was struck by that because it is nothing  of us, but it allows God to be hands to that hurting child. Thanks Scott! I love hearing from you guys at home. It gives me perspective on the situation. While I am in it I get overwhelmed but hearing from the body brings life and blessings. I love each of you.