Breath of life

 
                                                                             

For some of you I have kept no communication and if you have kept up with me though my blog you might assume I am still homeless. I am sorry for not bloging in a while. Life seems to never slow down, So much has taken place, and my heart has been in a process of healing for the past month. After Christmas I left for

Nyack
NY for training on emotional healing, the purpose of the class was to learn how to take people through prayer and emotional healing, but God had different plans… He knew in order for me to take others through healing I must first experience it for myself.

God took me to places deep in my heart that I had closed the door on. They were dark places and I was able to allow God to bring light and show me his love in the middle my pain and fears. I felt a freedom from shame and self pity. I felt a release from the burden of past wounds and I was able to forgive and also receive forgiveness. God has started the process and I know he is not finished but I am thankful that I was able to be open with him and allow him to come in and clean the dirty wounds that were festering in my heart. I came to the realization that my flesh is ugly and sometimes my spirit is weak. I need him not only on a day to day basis but moment by moment. He has come to set us free to bring life.

I decided that I am going to stop living as a maidservant in God’s kingdom, one who is bound in rags, and hangs her head low in fear of the King seeing who she truly is. I am going to start living a daughter and bride. I am going to step into the fullness of his love and bask in his presence knowing that I am my beloveds and he is mine.